Life is like a box of chocolates.

Couldn't have been said any better. I don't know why I'm blogging. Don't really have a reason to. But here I am, and so I write.

Went to Paradise yesterday with Alex. Had a lot of fun. Sat around with his grandpa most of the time and talked about WWII and Pearl Harbor (he was in both) and listened to old Jazz records and 8-tracks. He had some really good stuff in there. Glenn Miller, Buddy Rich, Nat King Cole, Duke Ellington, Dizzy Gillespie, Count Basie and a lot more.

The stuff he was telling us about the wars was insane. He's had so many near death experiences. I can't even count on two hands (it'd be a lot more) of how many times he's cheated death. It's so sweet to hear him talk about Alex's grandma. They were together for 60 years. They had a really sweet and romantic relationship. I hope to have that. I feel like I will but you never know. As long as Alex and I keep working together, everything will go as wanted.

Anyways, I have school tomorrow so I'm going to wrap this up in a minute. Patrick is supposedly going to set up a cat fight tomorrow between Mardee and this girl Rachel. They've been having drama now for a while apparently and its about time things get handled. They need to be done and over with. She love-tapped Mardee and Mardee (out of reflex) punched her in the forehead, hahah.

Alright, well I'm done. Time for some sleepage.





Christina

Yess.

School was fun today.
Maybe because it was HELLA cold.
And lunch was really relaxing.




Thee winter is a'commin'.
Stokedd. :)





<3


Christina Marieee

Mhm

Anthony Green has yet again stolen my heart.

So, I haven't been on here in a while.

Mine and Alex's 2 year anniversary is in 8 days! WOO! We still haven't broken up or "taken a break" or anything... cause we're that damn cool.

Anyways, I went to Urgent Care the other day because my migraines have been getting out of control. The doctors prescribed me 4 different meds and she said that if they don't help they're going to have to take a deeper look to see what's wrong. Scarrrryyy..

Well, I'm too lazy to sit on here and type (and I shouldn't be on the computer anyways) so I'll just end with this:



Ciao,
Christina Marie<3

I don't know anymore.

I'm depressed. I'm never happy, never satisfied, always complaining. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what to do to be happy. If I leave it, I'll be miserable, if I stay with it, I'll be miserable. I'm stuck in the middle of something I don't want. I wish I could just not give a fuck anymore. I've always cared to much when I shouldn't give a shit about anyone because nobody seems to give me the fucking time of day. Nobody listens to anything I have to say because it's just not important or doesn't contribute to their needs. I'm tired of feeling like I don't have the right to speak my mind. Like I can't even express my feelings. I'm gonna have to live my life like a turtle, locked away in my shell. It's horrible. I just want this to end. I want everything to end.

17 soon.

My 17th birthday is coming up. On memorial day, May 25th. I'm not sure what I want to do. Everything's probably going to be closed or going to close hella early which sucks. At least I'll have Alex to keep me company.

Anywhoooo. I'm bored. Not much to do. Not much to EVER do. Life is so dull. Someone do something to make it the LEAST bit exciting.

Ugh, I need a haircut.





Christina

Today/Tonight was horrible.

And as always I try to make the best out of things.
I try to stay positive.
I try to stay happy.

And like a miracle I'm blessed with a good turnout.
I'm blessed with a good boyfriend.
I'm blessed with good friends.
I'm blessed with a good family.
And I'm blessed with a better tomorrow.



Goodnight everyone, sweet dreams.
God Bless.

Poetry

I've been writing a lot. Well, not a lot. But when I really feel the need to. Even if I may not be good at it, it makes me feel like I actually belong to something. It makes me feel safe. And it makes me feel free. I don't know what it is about it that strikes me so hard, but it helps. A lot. I wrote a poem last night at like 1 or 2 am. I felt desperate and upset... worthless... just a few words later, I felt like a whole new person. I fell asleep almost instantly after fighting insomnia for hours. It's amazing. Poetry is my new getaway.

REPOST: A Year and Counting

Wow, I posted this almost a year ago in my myspace blog. Crazy and amazing to say that I still feel absolutely the same way about Alex. He completes me.

July 28, 2008 - Monday

A Year and Counting
Current mood: loved

Six days left on the calendar to mark away until it's been a year to the date since my life was changed drastically. It was pretty weird how things fell into place. We really can't even explain it ourselves. I guess, some things were just meant to be. A good example of what most people will call destiny. Either way, it happened, and I couldn't be more grateful.

I've recently began to thank the lord and pray every night, because I realized that not everyone receives something as amazing as what he's given me. True love. He gave me the best thing someone could have enter into their life and I am willing to take full advantage of that but be grateful in doing so.

We plan on making this last a lifetime, happy and in love, and forever best friends. I wish more people would take things like this as seriously as we do. I guarantee there'd be nothing but happiness to come into their life like it did mine.

This weekend was one of the most amazing I've had in a while. I got to see Alex everyday from Friday - Sunday. Which is very rare! I finally feel happy. I finally feel complete. I hope that this could happen more. I pray that this could happen more.

Me and baby loveeee are in love<3

Do you love your pets?

Do you love your pets? The government is tryinng to take them away. Say no to HR669! nohr669.com

Yeeyeeee!

Hung out with my boyfran today. Alex always puts me in a good no matter what the situation. Ran around back and forth from Tracy, Modesto, Manteca and Escalon today. A pain in the ass but whatever. I love love love love love my boyfriend.<3

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Rule #1

Hoe gotta problem? Don't try talking to my boyfriend like it ain't shit.

Follow or get to steppin, bitch.

Buddayyyyy

My video has gotten quite famous :)

And again...

Snapped unintentionally and it's fucking cute.<3

Check out some videos I've taken of him playing:
http://www.youtube.com/user/DrummerAlexBent

My Boyfriend

is so fucking cute : )
Gahhhh those eyesss!

Piercings

Bored at 5 in the morning, so what's a better thing to do than talk about my piercings that I have and had have.

Lip - 3 or 4 years
Smiley - 2 years
Gauges - On and off 3 years
Nose - Done twice, fallen out both times.

Lip: I got my lip done when I was 13 turning 14 I believe. The piercing shop barely even let me get it. My mom practically had to beg them to do it for me.

Smiley: I did this myself randomly one night when I got home from underground. Why? I don't know. It's been stretched to a 10 or 12 gauge, but it's back at an 18 gauge again. I've taken it out for months at a time about 2 times, and actually just recently put it back in. This will always be my favorite piercing because: 1. I did it myself; 2. Alex hates it : )

Gauges: The first time I stretched my ears, it was freshman year, and completely random. I pierced my ears, stuck nails in them (about an 8 gauge), then shoved those asian hair stick things in them (about a double zero). All in one night. I'm very impatient, didn't wanna wait to stretch them to a zero over weeks. Of course, my ear tore a little and bled everywhere. Then, the second time I stretched them, I went straight to a zero with tapers. My ears were swollen, throbbing, I couldn't sleep and they never actually healed. My dad saw them and made me take them out. They never fully closed. Now this time - I put size 4 tapers in, the next day 2's, and the day after, 0's. They went right through like nothing due to them not being fully closed, and that's where I'm at now.

Nose: This piercing has most definitely been cursed. The first time I got it, it fell out in my sleep and it hurt too bad to put it back in. The second time, I got it done at Elite Piercings for free cause Alex played a show there with Scourge and the band could get free piercings and if they didn't want them, they could give them to someone else. So, Alex got my nose pierced for me. Of course, that one fell out, but it was in a little longer than the other. Hurt too bad to put it back in. Have to get it repierced. I'm getting a fucking hoop this time!

Reading

In case you didn't know, reading is my most favorite thing in this world to do.

Currently reading:

April 7th, 2009

The Age of Reason - Thomas Paine
The Audacity of Hope - Barack Obama
Thirteen Reasons Why - Jay Asher fin. 4/8/09
P.S. I Love You - Cecilia Ahern

April 8th, 2009

The Crush - Sandra Brown



Comments or suggestions are greatly appreciated.

Thank you,
Christina Marie Bent

Modesto Virtual

I want to make one thing clear, I support bands, I do not support promoters. Even if Tim Gardea is taking more of my money than necessary, at least I get to see a good band out of it.

I like going to Modesto Virtual. It's close and easily accessible, it brings in good bands, and it makes it that much easier for me to have plans for the weekend. I've never been able to do that before, but Virtual changed that.

I don't care if there's no dance permit, though it would be nice to shut everyone up and stop acting hella immature at shows about it. People stopped going to shows there because they can't dance. Wasn't the point to go watch the band you wanna see play? I guess not. Seems like the only thing people want to do these days is show off their s00p3r c00l danc3 ski11z. I don't know, it's pretty ridiculous to me but, whatever.

I just wanna go to a show for once without all these 18-22 grown ass men acting like a bunch of 2 year olds. I hope they get the dance permit. Sorry if this blog offended anyone.

http://www.modbee.com/local/story/656340.html

Peace and Love,
Christina Marie Bent

He Brightens My Day

Even if he does fall asleep every single time he comes over. I feel this rush of excitement when Alex comes over first thing in the morning, I don't know why. I think it's because that just means I get to be with him longer. Whatever it is, I love it. I hate fighting. I told him this today, seriously, it's pointless and a waste of the time that we could be laughing, joking, kissing, or whatever else it is that makes us happy.

It's weird... I feel free when I'm with him. I feel absolutely amazing and I never want to let go. We're a year and 8 months now. We were going through my really old diary today. The one I used to write in when we were first getting together. So weird how everything happened, it's incredible.

I'm more than happy and I wouldn't change anything. If I could just share a bit of my happiness with the world, we'd truly be at peace. I found my happiness so young and I am beyond grateful.

The Lord saved my life and gave me happiness for sure.

Out for now,
Christina Marie

!@#$%^&*

I'm a writer.







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Fast and Furious

This movie was better than I thought it was going to be. Had me at the edge of my seat the whole time. Glad I got to see it. Alex and I had waited FOR-fucking-EVER for it to come out. -_- It was good tho. He too me on a cheap date. Our absolute favorites hahaha.<33 He's a cute boy.

Yesterday was sickkk. Went to the State Theatre and watched Alexander and his dad perform and shit. It was cool. Then we walked over to Modesto Virtual and watched Senses Fail play. Met the singer, got autographs from him and the guitarist for my sister. Recorded Buddy pwning Roman from La Circa. Right place at the right time I must say. Click here for the video.

After all that, we ended up going to Denny's with Alex's parents and little sister. Denny's at 12:30 in the morning is delicious after a long music-filled day.

I guess I'm off to TRY and help Alex with his homework now since HE NEVER DOES IT WHEN HE'S SUPPOSED TO. That boy is gonna get kicked out of his school and I won't even be able to go with him. Bleh, oh well. But yeah, I'm out.

Peace & love,
Christina Marie

Lonely Days

Haven't been up to much lately. Pretty much just been sitting at home doing nothing with my life. I went shopping yesterday. My mom gave us each $100 dollars so we spent some time at the mall and stuff. I only bought myself 2 shirts and I bought my baby a really sick Eazy-E shirt. My plan is to give it to him and I'll eventually get it back when I ask to borrow a shirt and I'll keep it. :) Haha, nahht. It is really cool though. Ummm, I bought Alex's sister a Jonas Brothers poster. And I bought the movie 'Troy'. I've only seen the ending but Alex has been bugging me to watch it with him. Luckily I still have 40 dollars and I'm getting another like 40-50 this week. I'm gonna buy Alex another shirt. He's so good to me. He deserves everything in the world.<3