I don't know anymore.

I'm depressed. I'm never happy, never satisfied, always complaining. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what to do to be happy. If I leave it, I'll be miserable, if I stay with it, I'll be miserable. I'm stuck in the middle of something I don't want. I wish I could just not give a fuck anymore. I've always cared to much when I shouldn't give a shit about anyone because nobody seems to give me the fucking time of day. Nobody listens to anything I have to say because it's just not important or doesn't contribute to their needs. I'm tired of feeling like I don't have the right to speak my mind. Like I can't even express my feelings. I'm gonna have to live my life like a turtle, locked away in my shell. It's horrible. I just want this to end. I want everything to end.